balance

i’m a domestic-engineer

i say like that because
i’m verbally trying to give credence to
one of the most underrated careers:
raisin’ kids

i love this job
it has been the most rewarding job i’ve had
working a 9-to-5 was NEVER this good
there is nothing else i’d rather be doing
right now

to work 8+ hours a day
and give my kids what’s left?
to work to pay for child care?
i think it makes sense
for the spiritual, mental, and physical health of my children
– the ones i chose to bring into this world,
by the leave of Allah –
to raise them myself

but still
i find my self comparing what i do
to what my husband does
and i want him to help more
around the house
to make my job easier

is that too much to ask?

at the same time i understand
that his work is a different kind of work
requiring a different set of skills and sacrifices
and truthfully, i wouldn’t want his job

do i just accept that
our home is my work
and his 9-to-5 is his work?

but what about raising the children?
i believe i have more of a responsibility
at this point in time
because i’m at home with them more,
but when he comes home
what should he be expected to do?

let me ask him later and see what HE says

it’s 8:39 AM
i’ve been up since fajr
checking my email,
looking on ebay for montessori materials,
searching addall and amazon for montessori books,
creating and starting off this blog,
and etc.

time for a little retreat from this woman’s work:
tajweed class with sister katrina

rahmah’s awake
sanaa is coughing
ishaq is rustling and wrestling from sleep